Cigarettes Today (or since my last post): 1 teeny tiny drag of a cigarette last night at our housewarming party. I'M SO PISSED. I'm a drag away from a pack a day. I'm a drag away from a pack a day. I'm a drag away from a pack a day.
Chantix Side Effects (on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the worst): This week has been spent weening myself off the Chantix. Add that to PMS and being really hard on myself about it all and you've got one emotionally confused ex-smoker.
Mood: Ehhh, still figuring it out. Mostly SO HAPPY, though!!
Cigarettes NOT Smoked Since Quit Date: 1760
So, I totally skipped over celebrate my 12 weeks mark on the blog, but it did not pass in vain. This week, I finally had feelings that I really liked myself better as a non-smoker. I'm so dang productive and I feel proud of that. BUT, this week I have faced several moments where I've had to honestly say no to cigarettes. The cravings are back. Luckily, I am fine if I don't drink. BUT, last night Josh reminded me how hard I have worked the last 3 months and that it would all be for nothing if I had even just 1 cigarette. And I agreed. Then, I had a drag of a cigarette - what a horrible addiction nicotine is! I emerged re-committed to quitting. Without the Chantix, I am going to have to do more of the work. I am set up for success, though, as I have built up healthy habits and routines AND I can celebrate the fact that I am done with the Chantix side effects! WOOHOO!
Wish me luck. I have come so far in my quitting journey, but this is just the beginning. Follow along and share my struggles and triumphs!
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keep going, you can do it!
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